red doc; anne carlson // icu; phoebe bridgers // a letter to nancy vonnegut; kurt vonnegut // sue zhao // stranger things season four: volume two // committed: a skeptic makes peace with marriage; elizabeth gilbert // shadow and bone; leigh bardugo
“Nós mudamos e ainda bem que isso acontece. Algo que era uma montanha hoje percebo que não passou de um grão de areia. Amigos que me esforcei pra agradar devido a minha carência afetiva hoje simplesmente não olham na minha cara, e o mais surpreendente é que o erro foi meu de acreditar e confiar em pessoas erradas. O oceano em que antes eu me afogavas hoje se transforma em um copo d'água diante dos meus olhos. Quando jovens damos importância a tantas coisas que hoje não tem valor nenhum. Aumentamos a dor, amplificamos o sentimento, e te pergunto pra quê?”
i fucking love this entrance from seward, he is like “this guy is completly insane, but he seems happy and to have a purpose in life, yes he is mad but if we are honest im probably one bad day away from becoming a mad scientist myself so honestly im just glad for him”
the self awareness, the empathy, the slightly deranged tone he takes for a split second there talking about how tempted he is to run fucked up experiments to understand the human mind
“To me it seems only yesterday that my whole life ended with my new hope, and that truly I began a new record…”
“…I must only wait on hopeless and work. Work! work!…If
I only could have as strong a cause as my poor mad friend there—a good,
unselfish cause to make me work—that would be indeed happiness.”
Say what you will but these lines resonated with me. Seward in a way considers Renfield the “lunatic” the more balanced one in a sense because Renfield is a “reasoning” being inspired with a purpose, capable of some happiness. And Seward considers himself dispirited, at a loss, and working to occupy his disquiet mind.
ALT
